Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Screen Resolution

Things have been looking a bit dark for a while.
Then I looked at my screen resolution and saw that my brightness level was at the lowest level!
No wonder I was squinting and hurting my eyes trying to read just about anything on this lap top.

How long has this been going on...and why haven't I gone into my computer to check it out sooner?

The other thing that has been happening is that I have been sleeping horribly for ....a few months now.

I finally took off all my accoutrements on my mattress and saw that I was sleeping in a hole!
Really, I knew I felt I had to drag myself out of bed in the morning...well, I really was dragging myself out of a hole!

It took me another month to contact the mattress company and then send them back photos that even without myself in the bed, it was sunk over 2 inches.  It has a 10 year warranty and I had it 3 years. After contacting them and then taking photos with a string and weight device, they said, yes, you get a new mattress.  Well, then I found out that no one in the area for 200 miles carries their beds anymore and I sure did not want a replacement of the same mattress that the saga continues.
After initially discovering that I was in a hole, I ended up folding up an extra mattress pad and filling the hole with it.  After that no longer worked, I tried turning over the mattress to the side that they say do not sleep on.  That worked for two nights.  Now I have pulled out the old air bed. I slept on that for a few nights before I got this bed and was actually comfortable, soooo we shall see how long that will last. 
Maybe I should set up the hammock next!

But where does this all lead to in this missive?....

What the hell am I doing to myself?  Why suffer so long until I take action?

I am at a point in my life right now that feels uncomfortable in general.
So many ideas in the brain, so little accomplished moving forward. I can feel and even visualize a change coming, yet that will not miraculously happen as in divine intervention.  You gotta just do it!

I have heard this from others also.  They want to make changes and move forward, but for some reason, everything feels stuck.  That needs too much effort and it is hard to see over the next hill...or should I say mountain.
I think we are all just tired in general.
Life tired.
Soul tired.

Day to day making a living is just not doing it anymore.  There is so much more out there.

Wouldn't it be lovely if we could all just easily access that vast little computer we call our brain and increase our screen resolution and brightness.

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